♥♥ my second first love ♥♥♥

love me, love me wooohhh.....

his art,

 beautiful hand,

 fair complexion,

and most of all 

his sorrowful eyes

 captures my heart

he can draw graciously

 and a bright man 

and has a posture.

what else can you ask more?when 

all the qualities

 a girl can wish for

 for her ideal man 

is in a package.

well, finding someone like him is a miracle.

remembering the days

 You've spent with him 

is so frustrating,

 where..... 

you don't even know

 if he feels your presence.

 stealing a single glance from behind,

 admiring him secretly 

and being friends with his little brother

 just to get near him. 

sounds like a stalker,

  a desperate one, right?

well,liking someone can make us somebody we don't even know.

not knowing,

 we do silly things

 just to make him notice us.

we tell them,

" make me these and that,

 help me with these and that

 and so many others".

I'd like to share this story:

gecko and cockroach have been classmates since freshmen high school. well, they are two different individuals but the two have this only one in common,they both love manga.though gecko don't really know how to draw, while cockroach is a prince in drawing. gecko had always asked him to draw for her. and since cockroach is still a little shy-boy at that time he would just gladly obey.and on the other day gecko would be so happy looking at it.

cockroach is quite popular in the campus because his talent, 

<i think he is the only one that could bring you an illusion>.well, gecko had envied him for a long time though gecko has always praised him.that's the time where gecko's feelings had grown deeply towards cockroaches'.during juniors high school,gecko neglected that familiar but unfamiliar feelings at that time.

until,seniors day had come where soon they have to part to pursue their own different dreams. that time,gecko already knew that he liked cockroach. even before juniors'.it's just that she don't know how to open it? or how to deal with it with cockroach. they parted from each other without letting their-selves express what they really feel from each other.

now,she feels regretful for the cowardice she had shown, if only she could be courageous enough to tell him, 
"i like you".
things might have turned out differently.....

she want to see him evenmore.

she thinks of him everytime.

 a regretful story i could ever tell☺♥☻

♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥70^e♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥☺♥☻♥

behind those bright smiles

are the gloomy secrets

the insecurities and hatred

 he had ever kept from the eyes of everyone

only those who have a great heart 

can felt it

i asked,WHY?

only those who are true

can see me through

i've wanted to kill 

BUT.....

this cowardice i feel when i attempted to

i don't know how to ease this

some part of me saying it's wrong,

you're not the one to judge

and this one say,

you have hurt

ENOUGH

already

STOP 

the pretense 

and show up!!!!!

TALK!!!!!

you coward.....

TALK♥TALK♥TALK♥TALK♥TALK♥TALK♥TALK

♥♥♥At Last☺♥☺

at last♥♥♥♥♥☺

gecko just finished his clearance!!!!!

the tiring yet happy experience had already ended☺

geckos noisy friends are kinda silent today

they don't seem to worry 'bout their clearance

(and it kinda bother gecko)

well its them, and gecko is gecko

gecko is starting to lose weight today 

(haha...hope geckos determination will soon fruit)

gecko can now rest from pretense

(just a little bit)

he can now rest from the stress of 1hour commuting

but he will surely miss the fascinating neon lights from this newly built hotel

Wednesday 2011,9:11pm... gecko saw these dancing lights

gecko dreamed of working in this place soon

last day.

               Tuesday 

gecko went to a familiar place to fetch some important things

he texted this important person he once mentioned that he will go their

gecko is a little nervous

he thought that this special person is angry

(why will you go there?)

he read

gecko explained and then he received a message

(_ _ e _, is this you?dumb why would you ask my permission?)

what a relief....☺

he is not angry♥♥♥

♥.LASTHAPPINESS..LASTHAPPINESS..LASTHAPPINESS.♥

♥a stressful day☻☺♥

please,i'm sick and tired of it already..... give me a break@}--

SCENE I : good prank morning!!!!!☺

gecko was awakened by a noisy sound from his phone.

maht.ta!!! it's already 5:10 in the morning.

as he read the text message.

one of his text-ed that he will not be able yo take part in the 

event,blah blah blah 

and on his way to school he received another text message.

saying same thing!!!

he got very irritated and says things that only his heart knows.

he cursed them

curse curse curse >.<

he got very irritated early in the morning

time has past, still the event hasn't started yet and his teacher  

is not yet there.

then another bunch of his group friends text-ed him that they 

cannot attend because of that this reasons.

his face cannot be described anymore then he saw three familiar 

figures going on his direction YES!!! they are here and they

 GOT ME THIS TIME!!!!!

SCENE II: advice advice advice.....

gecko had a text conversation with his hao pengyou during  

high school.

he tell gecko about his worries on his study.

then stupid gecko also gave one. 

("follow your dreams, do what you want!, don't listen to what

 your mom would tell you! you can do summer jobs anyway and 

besides where is your scholarship? you can still use it even if 

you would shift to another course anyways.)

SCENE III: NICE MEETING YOU☺☻☺☻☺

gecko met a very very nice person today.

her name is ferlin,a senior.

they had a very good conversation. 

and they get along well.

gecko find ferlin as a respected and a good example for every 

teens.

 she has this unique beliefs.

 and she is beautiful, bright, and a very tall lady. 

i think she can be described as 

YIN-YANG.

she has a strong belief in good and bad.

she is not that GOOD and not that BAD either.

SCENE IV: function experience☻:-(☻:-(☻

the function at the president's office had started at noon.

gecko and ferlin helped each other to serve the dishes to the 

international guests(Malaysian and Japanese).

geckos teacher is watching him.

he is outside of the glass door giving sign instructions and 

critic eyes.

making sure that she could leave the president a good impression 

of her curriculum.

gecko does errands here and there.

then, the good president ordered gecko to have lunch.

though gecko did not follow the order right away but instead 

finish the chores first. 

the president keep on telling him to eat.

so this stupid gecko, without his teacher presence get a plate 

then bring it to the buffet table without noticing his teacher's 

critic eyes from the glass window. 

his teacher had seen his action and talk to her in front of the 

presidents staffs.

then goes back to the buffet table.

geckos eyes got misty while getting a plate of rice.

hiding it from everybody around him he goes back to the staffs 

room. 

his teary eye is saying that its not true but can't utter a 

single word.

he could only utter the word ("dili man")

then sobs silently.

his teacher keep on insisting that gecko was holding a plate, 

spoon and fork that is why gecko cried because he knows that he 

is being judge wrongly.

SCENE V: ANGRRRY!!!!!MAD!!!!!

gecko got mad to his friends text messages.

it has lots of hurtful and curses words which gecko hates the 

most.

so he replied to him without thinking though he know that it's a 

group message.

and ended up quarreling.

SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY

FORGIVE ME@}--

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hello 2011 goodbye 2010!!!!!♥♥♥☺

           Hello 2011

Goodbye 2010 ♥♥♥♥♥

☺

 Let's welcome this 2011 

with a

 new perspective

goal 

and

 positive outlook.

throw everything

that is 

nonsense

and

is

so sad 

to

remember

BUSAY CEBU CITY

☺ LOCATION: MAASLOM, BUSAY CEBU CITY,PHILIPPINES

☺ NORTH DISTRICT: BARANGAY BUSAY

☺ time of travel from downtown area is about 40 mins up to  1hour depending on the transportation that you are using

☺ Barangay Busay is not only known for its beautiful flowers and scenery but also for its small falls(busay)

☺ SUBDIVIDED INTO 3 MAJOR PARTS:

☻ LOWER BUSAY

        ►it is called lower busay because it is located in lower part of the barangay busay.Still near from downtown area.

☻ MAASLOM ,LOWER BUSAY
       
  ►it is called maaslom, lower busay because it is situated at the center of lower and upper busay. And the water from the mountains are said to taste sour(aslom in dialect).
       
  ►the water are said to be sour when an explosion happened their during the japanese era.my grandpa said that during that time filipinos are ordered by the japanese to make a tunnel. he said that at the center of that very very big mountain is a diamond.so they dig dig and dig until one time a very strong typhoon came and killed all the people inside the tunnel. then the tunnel was closed by a mud. And that was the time that the mountain produces a sour water. And some part of the mountain produces a cooper.

☻ UPPER BUSAY
        
►place of flowers. It is situated ate the upper part of busay. It is the mountainous area where variety of flowers are being grown because of its fine and cold weather. 

♥ saengil chukha hamnida ♥

march 02,  2011

today was a special day  

not only for gecko

 but

 also to someone who is dear to gecko 

i think.....

gecko is more excited  

than this dear in  

todays occasion

LUCKY!!!

(gecko said in his mind)

gecko was excited in going to school today

he finished all his tasked with dedication and anticipation 

then after school 

gecko hurried home

spend double in his fare expense just to got home early

he has many good thoughts inside his mind

until he got home

everything was replaced with fear, emptiness, sorrow

when he got home no one was their 

where are they????

(gecko murmured in his shaky mind)

(his eyes are starting to cry but he managed to stop it)

then a beep from a familiar vehicle shout from the road

there they are.....

they have eaten at the restaurant already

haha

(that's the only thing gecko can say)

well, 

he still greeted this dear person

(with almost a teary eye)

(he managed not,why would he cry?)

there are many questions in gecko's head

lots lots of questions

but

he didn't manage to get even 

just one true answer

why?why?why?

if if if

there is always whys? & ifs

rEbeL VS hiPoCRisy

MARCH 02, 2011

waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

i've heard from a movie

 that a teenager won't be a teenager 

if he hadn't tried 

to

 REBEL

what if i tried??

would it be a lot of fun?????

haha 

(hope so.....) 

i really don't know what to do

i want to cry  

i want to shout

 but i cant!!!!!

 how could i?????

 i'm not even a member of their family,

 i don't have guts on entering in their family

who am i

 to make "siksik" of myself?????

 i don't even know 

if they take me as their 

family

 or

 just a mere servant

i don't know whom to believe now

 i think all of them are against me

i know i'm at fault too

 but

 is it right to just judge me from what they

 have heard?????

writing this 

can say that i'm a self-centered person 

hell i care!!!

what if

 i used that phrase

 from now on

 to them?????

what would be their reaction?????

what if i say "hell i care!"

would my life become 

more happy ?????

more exciting?????

i wanna be 

freed

 in this

 HYPOCRISY!!!!!

i won't live in their shadow anymore

(hope so)

well i'm not their servant!!!!!

think what you want to think

i'd rather be selfish this time

SORRY

LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE♥TIETAH♥LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE♥LOVE